more elaborately, she does know what she's doing. it's obvious, and plainly put, cavorting around with a man that she knows. someone at home would be proud, she thinks (home, but it's not really, and would carolyn be proud or fascinated is the real question at hand). it's simple. uncomplicated. and as desperately as she wants to, victoria so rarely lets herself feel something, lest it be a lie like the rest of everything -
and maybe that's what frightens her. maybe it's something else.
she lies silently, back flat on the mattress as she stares up at the ceiling fan rotating above her. she holds the blankets to her chest as she swallows hard and sits up, shuffling away. ]
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more elaborately, she does know what she's doing. it's obvious, and plainly put, cavorting around with a man that she knows. someone at home would be proud, she thinks (home, but it's not really, and would carolyn be proud or fascinated is the real question at hand). it's simple. uncomplicated. and as desperately as she wants to, victoria so rarely lets herself feel something, lest it be a lie like the rest of everything -
and maybe that's what frightens her. maybe it's something else.
she lies silently, back flat on the mattress as she stares up at the ceiling fan rotating above her. she holds the blankets to her chest as she swallows hard and sits up, shuffling away. ]
I should go.